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  posted by Blaed @ 1:13 PM

 
OMG, the most wonderful thing has happened! A guy found me on Planetout and Whitty and I have most likely hooked him up with Stephen! This is so great! He thinks Stephen is cute! ::muffled laughter::

Anyway, they clicked instantly and plan on making Fruit juice! ::giggles::

Finally, a productive Maelstrom! And Whitty helped! A lot!

  posted by Blaed @ 1:14 AM

 
Today was so fucking depressing. It sucked to think about how I could've been with Blake today but I'm not because he can't come until Sunday.

Whitney didn't call last night...or the night before, I don't think...and she's at Paige's house now, so I still don't get to talk to her.

The only one on is Kyle and he won't shut up about his fucking boyfriend. "he makes me sooo happy...he is just like me too...he talks alot and is cute and the girls love us" Well, is he stuck on himself? Is he an arrogant little prick who never shuts up?

Why in the hell does everyone get to be with their boyfriends/girlfriends except me? It's not fucking fair, I swear it. And Kyle's rubbing it in my fuckin' face.

I miss my girlfriend, I can't see my boyfriend until Sunday, and the only person online is getting on my last fucking nerve.

You'd think out of thirty-nine buddies in my buddylist, there'd be at least one who was worth talking to that was on right now. Apparently not.

Where the fuck is everybody?

  posted by Blaed @ 8:28 PM

 
I don't understand why my mom is entirely against Blake. I don't get it. I plan to talk to her about it, but I don't get a good feeling.

After all my ups and downs, I'm finally happy. Why is my own mom going to be the one that takes that away from me?

Too much.

I thought all this depression was over.

Don't you dare take this away from me.

  posted by Blaed @ 8:28 PM

 
Seeing as I haven't posted an entry in nearly two weeks, now seems the perfect moment to do so.

Short Course was both hectic and wonderful. I enjoyed my time with Whitney and I was glad to meet some of her friends. I was able to win my contest, thus earning myself a trip; a second vacation for me. I also made a few friends who were also competing against me...but it was friendly competition, of course.

My vacation was also hectic and wonderful. I yearned to be free of my parents every moment...they would argue and get on my nerves. We went to Houston and Galveston...both of which were very nice except for the unholy amount of rain we received on Galveston. We had planned to visit Moody Gardens, but the rain kept us away. The waves from the wind drew out several hot surfers...who all made me lonely and slightly depressed. But I'm home now.

I found out that I might not be able to attend the tech board training in Baton Rouge. I was supposed to respond by yesterday, but by the time I got the e-mail it was already too late. If I can't go, it would be somewhat of a relief. Kyle would be there...and though I don't like him, I have a feeling that he'd be as charming as possible to tempt me. I never was any good when it came to temptation and I don't want to hurt Whitney or Blake.

I'm worried for Whitney and recent events that have caused her some trouble. I can only hope that eveything turns out alright in the end. I'll be there for her, no matter what happens.

My mom is being so annoying when it comes to Blake. She already asked me if I loved him and I answered her honestly. She wants to know why I want to call him. ::sighs:: I know she's not happy of the thought of me with a guy, but it's really none of her business. I'm not going to let myself be restrained by what she wants.

  posted by Blaed @ 1:47 PM

 
And with this final entry, I depart for Short Course. All of my preparation comes down to this last fated week in which I will compete against numerous others. My plan is to win this contest.

Tomorrow I see Whitney. The locket will be hers. It's going to look great on her.

I'm so nervous. I can't fail in this contest. Fourth or higher. Fourth place or higher.

::sighs:: I will miss everyone. Wish me some luck.

  posted by Blaed @ 11:26 PM

 
::sighs as he listens to the beautiful mixture of relaxing piano with energizing techno::

Whoever came up with this perfect blend of high energy and my favorite instrument was a complete genius and deserves a shrine.

I learned nothing at the training today. It was nice to have a review. Anyway, I refuse to talk about Short Course...thinking of my contest makes me want to throw a heavy object through my bedroom window.

Mom and I were talking about my writing. She was wondering how my story was coming along and if I had any actual plans to publish it. I certainly want to try, though I'd never use my real name. If I published a book while still in high school, I can only imagine what the idiots would say. I don't need any more pressure than I can handle. If you see anything by Blaed Midnight on the shelves, you'll know it's me hiding behind a pseudonym. Don't run out and look. It's going to be a long time before a miracle happens.

Apologies again to everyone who ended up in Yami Hon. I was quite upset...and once I'm upset, every little thing makes me snap. It will be so nice to get my contest over with, enjoy my last day at Short Course, and find out what I placed. After that, I'm going on vacation. That's going to be wonderful. Beaches...swimming pools...AstroWorld...::sighs:: It's going to be lovely. Naturally, I'll get sick on the car ride. But even that downside is nothing compared to how much I'm going to enjoy a week away from Cecilia...away from this entire state. I haven't left the state in over a year.

  posted by Blaed @ 2:00 PM

 
I am having a bad week! As you've noticed, the tiniest things are tripping me off and throwing me into a rage. I'm upset about my stupid presentation. I have to tweak every little detail so that it's good enough to win...and even then, I have to worry about the other two areas of my contest. Last year, my presentation was one point beneath the first place presentation, so it's not what I need the most work on. It's just not my week and I'm sorry for anyone who gets in my way. I'm a wreck right now. I'm nervous and I want to win my contest...or at least do better than last year. Anyway, damn this stupid contest! It's making me insane!

I just woke up and I'm freezing cold because I can't sleep if it's too hot. I'd rather be asleep right now, but I have to go to Short Course training today. I think that means I have to bring the laptop. Grr.

I should really just stop thinking about the damned contest completely.

About Yami Hon...if you ended up in there, don't take it too seriously. Stephen, if you put some long bitchy comment in my Yami Hon, I'm just going to leave you in there. Don't take it personal. Last night was a bad night for me and I apologize.

  posted by Blaed @ 7:02 AM

 
Scilence no Miko: ahahahaha. you know what is the SHIBBIEST song in the world?
Kitsune329: Hrm?
Kitsune329: "Master of the Wind."
Scilence no Miko: "lilly, my one and only" by the smashing pympkins.
Kitsune329: No way. Mine's better.
Scilence no Miko: look uo the lyrics. it's all about this guy that's like... stalking this girl named lilly. and it sounds like a beautiful summer evening!
Scilence no Miko: it is the COOLEST fucking song EVER!
Kitsune329: Mine's better. It's about...well...it's...it's just better!

  posted by Blaed @ 8:57 PM

 
Kitsune329: Anyway, Whitty Darling told me that you said I would not fit in up there because the people there are bigheaded.
Kitsune329: Maybe I bring a needle to deflate their overly large craniums ^_^
Scilence no Miko: not bigheaded. but... you'd piss them off. and they'd piss you off.
Kitsune329: Oooh! A world full of chaos and destruction!

  posted by Blaed @ 8:54 PM

 
Kitsune329: You've spread your computer's obesity to mine! How dare you!
Kitsune329: ::smiles::
Kitsune329: Now I have a fat computer with PMS.
Kitsune329: ::is reminded of Miss Christine with her hairy arms and mustache::
Scilence no Miko: *gryn* no prob. but mine musta doubled the narcotics, cuz it's goin slower than ever...
Kitsune329: ::giggles::
Scilence no Miko: miss christine? o.0
Kitsune329: A woman who lived with my uncle for a few years. They were ecstatic when they could pass each other in the hallway.
Kitsune329: Granted, it was a narrow hallway, but she was quite large.
Scilence no Miko: XD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

  posted by Blaed @ 8:54 PM

 
It's stormy outside...which is very nice to listen to. I only hope the power doesn't go out again...the cable was freaking out earlier and that was during a slight drizzle. Right now, there's thunder...I haven't looked out a window to see how hard it's raining, but it sounds bad. I wonder where all this rain has come from, anyway. It's very bizarre...it's been raining nearly every day for almost a week.

Oh, and the Maelstrom was destroyed. At least the one I was most concerned about.

I wish I could call Whitney, but she's had her ten minutes with me and I'm already going to be in trouble for calling without asking. Oh well...I might just call Stephen.

Summer is so boring.

  posted by Blaed @ 3:23 PM

 
There are no words. Really. I've woven this huge-ass Maelstrom (yes, with a capital "M") around myself. Don't worry...I'm tearing it down.

  posted by Blaed @ 9:15 AM

 
Yesterday, we went uber-shopping. We picked up all kinds of nice clothes, then stopped at Wal Mart for some things. At the car, I almost ran over Mummy's toes with the shopping cart, so she got all pissed off. I didn't think it was such a big deal, so I was like, "whatever." She drove off with Kiera and left me in the parking lot. I was pissed...I went and sat in front of the store with a scowl on my face, growling. She picked me up and took us to McDonald's before going home.

  posted by Blaed @ 3:51 PM

 
About my cats.

First there was Sally. She lives inside with us because she's our spoiled princess and wouldn't last five minutes outside. We adopted Cally, who lived inside with us until she was old enough to go outside. Well, she got pregnant and thus we gained four more cats: Ash(ley), Tanner, Snowflake, and Aaron.

Cally got pregnant again and had five kittens. About a few weeks ago, Aaron was hit by a car.

We had a possum attack and four of our kittens went missing. One came back. Today, I found her dead outside the back door. I had to bury her, so I decided to put her next to Aaron.

Now, we have Sally (safe from all harm since she's inside), Cally, three cats from her first litter, and only one left from her second. We were going to get rid of the kittens, but since Aaron died, we wanted to keep one. Weird that the one we wanted to keep is the only one left.

::sighs:: Whatever's killing my cats had better stop. I'm gonna find your animal behind and kick your ass.

And if it's a person, I'll kick their ass too.

Don't mess with my fucking animals.

  posted by Blaed @ 12:56 PM

 
I'm starting to fashion an idea in my head
Where I would impress you with every single word I said.
It would come out insightful, or brave, or smooth, or charming
And you'd want to call me.
"For You To Notice" - Dashboard Confessional
Just a song I'm listening to.

My mom owes me $15. I need $60 to buy the Shamanic Princess tapes. That'll be shibby.

Short Course is fast approaching, which means I get a chance to win my contest. I'm also giving Whitney her gift...probably at one of the dances. ::smiles:: Have any idea what it is, Washu? ::grins::

The summer is going okay so far...I've been watching my Tenchi Universe tape whenever I get bored. Watching Tenchi makes me want to draw and write, so I spend a few hours in my room, expressing myself and channeling my creativity. I mowed the grass yesterday and plan to do so again so I can earn my money. I had begun to clean my room the week Leo was here (only because I didn't want to go downstairs where he was), but I stopped. Maybe I can start up again...my room would look nice if it were actually clean. ::hasn't seen his floor in years::

Damn...I was gonna write something here, but I forgot what it was. Maybe it'll come back to me.

Our vacation is gonna be so cool...we get to go back to AstroWorld. And then, we're probably going again with 4-H...so that's really shibby. I need to remember to get something for motion sickness...it was awful getting sick at Whitty's Fun Fest and I don't want to be sick to my stomach at AstroWorld.

Oh yeah, for those who are worried, I found my brain and I no longer hate myself! ^_^

Hrm...I can't think of anything else to write, though I know there's something....

Oh well. ::chuckles::

  posted by Blaed @ 8:54 AM

 
My mind feels like someone came and deleted it.

I feel very blah right now. Hmm...it's very weird.

  posted by Blaed @ 8:04 PM

 
I won a chair. They announced that they were giving out door prizes for my age group and said the first one was a chair. I had to be sarcastic and say, "Ooh, I want a chair." Well, my ticket number was the first one called. At least a $25 gift card to Wal-Mart was included. I gave it to my mom...now my debt is eliminated and my mom owes me $5. Very shibby. If I save enough, I can buy the Shamanic Princess tapes.

Fly away to a rainbow in the sky.
Gold is at the end for each of us to find.
There the road begins where another one will end.
Here the four winds know who will break and who will bend,
All to be the master of the wind.

Mm...if I had paint and a canvas, I could probably spin out something worth looking at. Maybe I can ask my mom about that...though I've never imagined myself as a painter. But right now, I want to paint a picture of something blue. An ocean...waves...a waterfall. A whirlpool. A glittering gem resting on the water's surface. Oh well...I'll just keep these things in my head. I'd draw them, but my skills are somewhat lacking...hrm, and what makes me think I could paint. ::chuckles:: I'm going insane. I'd write, but I'm not feeling inspired and I'm afraid to force the words.

  posted by Blaed @ 4:55 PM

 
Written at 8:50 this morning but some fool restarted the computer downstairs...::growls::

In the silence
Of the darkness
When all are fast asleep
I live inside a dream
Calling to your spirit
As a sail calls the wind
Hear the angels sing

Far beyond the sun
Across the western sky
Reach into the blackness
Find a silver line
In a voice I whisper
A candle in the night
We'll carry all our dreams
On a single beam of light

Close your eyes
Look into the dream
Winds of change will winds of fortune bring

Fly away to a rainbow in the sky
Gold is at the end for each of us to find
There the road begins where another one will end
Here the four winds know who will break and who will bend
All to be the master of the wind

Falling stars
Now light my way
My life was written on the wind
Clouds above
Clouds below
High ascend the dreams within

When the wind fills the sky
The clouds will move aside
And there will be the road to all our dreams
And for any day that stings
Two better days it brings
Nothing is as bad as it seems

Close your eyes
Look into the dream
Winds of change will winds of fortune bring

Fly away to a rainbow in the sky
Gold is at the end for each of us to find
There the road begins where another one will end
Here the four winds know who will break and who will bend
All to be the master of the wind

Not long until we leave for the picnic...so I'd better be jumping into the shower. Fun day!

  posted by Blaed @ 10:06 AM